Drop Dead and Scream!!!

Sep.26, 2006

Today, I am SO TIRED!!! First, I forgot to bring junk and then we had to pick up junk/trash from streets! The ones who came with me were Alora, Trixy and Rogette. they were such a great help! and I managed to get 7 kilos of junk! I guess thAT means I'll be getting a plus! yipee!but I still had to help out Abegail and April with the costumes... I was dead tired!

And when me and Pat. P. shared shoes (it happened right after I got mud in my shoes for getting the junk in my muddy backyard and changed to my favorite ones), I kinda felt that Patricia is really a good friend, I hope she returns my favorite shoes back tomorrow!

So then when I heard we were going to be overnight to help for our activity tomorrow, I so wanted to go! But when I asked permission from my parents, they said no, I mean who wouldn't? Okay, maybe some, but they're different from my dad and mom! And then when I heard that we would help out today to six o' clock, I was so pissed off!!! And then, we actually got dissmissed early after all! I was thinking "man! All that waiting for nothing!!!

Also, my love life is great so far... But Pats, Alora and Rogette, I know I have to tell Ghia the truth. I am guilty, I really am, I hurt her today. But it can't be helped... This was the best for her--both of us... It pains me to say goodbye to a loved one... but it will never, ever work out. I know what she's doing now, she's crying her heart out like me, although it doesn't show, Alora and Patricia, I'm really wounded inside. I really envy people who have a great a love life... 'Cause I know, I'll never find that special someone.

Now back to reality, It was raining after school... REALLY RAINING HARD! But it did hide the tears, the pain I had inside... That's why I love the rain... It helps me cover up all the mistakes, lies and especially the TRUTH in my eyes...